I just don't know

I'm not going to publish everything. I don't want to do that to you.

I just don't get things. I know what you say, but you haven't well what they say 'walk the walk'!? You keep telling me things are going to go this way or that way, in which you chose to do neither.

I don't know how much longer I can't stay in this toxic relationship. I'm trying everything to get thru to you and yet you keep saying that your working on it, in which you are not. And I can't say lately I have either. Lately I figure you don't get a damn neither do I, FUCK IT!

But then I go back and I'm like I do love you. I do. Maybe unfortunately maybe not. I don't know anymore what I'm doing. I keep giving you passes. You get these free passes, ya maybe I bring it up later, but it's kinda hard not to when there's actual proof to show you what you do. =/

I don't know what you get out of hurting me.. I don't get it. And sorry just doesn't count. It can't anymore. It's the proof of you changing that will only count.

Your chances are getting limited. I don't think you realize how close it is.

And the fact that then you play this victim game, and say just leave because I'm this or that.. fuck off! You are an ass right now!! But to sit there and act all sad .. a NO! You don't get that right! Sorry you just don't!

I truly hope (and I mean this) that things will get resolved.

I married you with the intentions of living with you for the rest of my life. I remember the day we got married and I believe in it all. It wasn't a celebration to me. It was me saying that I loved you and I wanted to live with you for the rest of my life. Thru the thick and thin and I would do ANYTHING I could to make sure that that's what happened. That I would have a blessed family that was strong and united. Maybe fight but then figure out the problem and make it work. That's what I went into our marriage with.

Guess I don't know what you were thinking.