Calm Before the Storm

That's my new saying .. well newish. Always have that calm.. and then something always happens. 

Problem now is not the fight, not what happened. Which I will say the cut under your eye, I threw the phone at you in which you were under the blanket so there was NO intent to hurt you in that way at all! I didn't even touch you at all the whole time, so when it happened and when I offered 3 different times to help and you were just being an ass well I can't say much more then that. 

I knew you would take my children. =/ I'm kinda figuring what's going to go on. I know you going to bring up all my bad things. Going to jail, drinking, having an eating disorder. Getting upset at things. I know your going to throw me under the bus so that I don't have my children. 

Just so you know .. just so maybe.. just MAYBE.. you get this. I had those babies in my belly. I felt them grow I felt them kick. I talked to them I held them before they were even in this world. I read to them I sung with them. I laughed at them when they kicked me. I put up with the pain in the labor room with them. I was awake while you slept and ate while I was in pain to bring them into this world. I tried everything to give them anything I could for them. 

But I get it, I know what you will do to me. I know your going to tear me from the inside out. And there's really nothing I can do. Cause I have been depressed and upset.. and that gives you the right to be the daddy of the year.. right!!! 

Eventho I was the one and am still the one waking up with them. Making them their meals. For god sakes you didn't even get them lunch today. But hey.. ya I got the memo.. It's ME!

You do a God Damn good job of manipulating ppl. That's for sure! You know exactly how to make ppl feel bad for you and think that you deserve it. Well, guess what.. YOU DON'T!!!! 

Now your just somebody that I used to know.