Shit.. how long could this list go:) lol
But really seriously.
What I dislike the most, is that you don't seem to care about my feelings. You constantly fight me on every situation. Because YOU KNOW BEST!!! ALWAYS DO! RIGHT?!?! YOU HAVE THE RIGHT ANSWER!
It's just annoying that you'll fight with me because you know exactly what to do, what to say, what I need to do better, What I'm feeling. And yet if I mess up and say that your feeling this way you get upset with me because I don't know what your feeling. A.. hello, why do you think you constantly know what I'm feeling.
Well, I was to have this finished eventho I know you are not even doing it. So I'll continue on my end and do what I started to do to try to help our relationship. That's also another thing that upsets me because you say constantly that you want to work on it and you'll try all these things to help it and yet you do nothing. Kinda that whole list of things that you brought home for me to consider and have we even done one on it?!?!? Hmm..
Monday, March 26, 2012
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Hobbies
Really? I mean really? I swear I don't know why .. out of all things .. Hobbies! AHH..
Well here I go. My hobbies. What is a hobby:)
I remember when I first talking with ppl on the internet they would ask my hobbies. A well I play sports, I play the piano, I sing. Didn't really read. Oh music. That was always up there on the list.
What are my hobbies now tho? Christ I have no idea.
I was into reading there for awhile, up until June, when shit starting hitting the ceiling. I like to sit out in the sun. Wished I still liked to swim, but now it's just too much that I don't like to do it that much. Plus to most of the time the water is cold.
Ooh.. I like camping. Love camping. Specially sitting next to the fire. I love hearing that crackle and then the heat that comes off of it.
I definitely do not like to fish. At least to places that we've gone to.. at least a cording to him ?!?!
I miss our times tho. I miss the times of us just being together. Nothing more nothing less. Expectations .. they didn't exist! I definitely miss those days.
But as for now, it seems my hobbies are cleaning. Not like I don't take pride in cleaning but at times .. I just feel like it's another thing I'm being judged on.
Well here I go. My hobbies. What is a hobby:)
I remember when I first talking with ppl on the internet they would ask my hobbies. A well I play sports, I play the piano, I sing. Didn't really read. Oh music. That was always up there on the list.
What are my hobbies now tho? Christ I have no idea.
I was into reading there for awhile, up until June, when shit starting hitting the ceiling. I like to sit out in the sun. Wished I still liked to swim, but now it's just too much that I don't like to do it that much. Plus to most of the time the water is cold.
Ooh.. I like camping. Love camping. Specially sitting next to the fire. I love hearing that crackle and then the heat that comes off of it.
Not sure if that gets to count as a hobby tho !??!
I definitely do not like to fish. At least to places that we've gone to.. at least a cording to him ?!?!
I miss our times tho. I miss the times of us just being together. Nothing more nothing less. Expectations .. they didn't exist! I definitely miss those days.
But as for now, it seems my hobbies are cleaning. Not like I don't take pride in cleaning but at times .. I just feel like it's another thing I'm being judged on.
Friday, March 16, 2012
When We Met
Now this is a story. And I have to back it up some too just so you get the whole shebang.
My good friend, Heather was graduating college that week. And to go all out, we drank every night. Well Friday met up with a group, in a town that's about 15 minutes away from where we live. Anyways I was going to get a ride with someone else when my friend calls to say come back. So I get dropped off to only not find them and she wouldn't pick up her damn phone! (It wasn't the first time this shit happened.. so I wasn't upset or anything just wanted to go home) Then I break my phone.. that's what a drunk ass does. And all the numbers are in my phone.. the phone works but you just can't see anything on the screen. So luckily the casino we .. I mean I was at let me use the phone. And long and behold the only number I can remember and who wouldn't, was my friend Cory and it was 722-SUCK haha:) I tell you if that wasn't for his number I would have been stranded.
Well he drives and comes picks me up. (oh and he was also graduating that day too, but he wasn't surprised with Heather either lol). So I get home at 5:30 a.m. and go straight to bed.
I was supposed to go to the ceremony but I slept straight thru it. Heather called like at 12:30 and was like where are you we're on our way to .. you want us to pick you up? So I'm like give me 20:) Got showered and ready and then headed off to their reception. (her fiance at that time had also graduated).
They were out at the Holiday Inn..As we were sitting there in the lobby I will never forget Tom walking thru the doors. He was there with his mom, not to go to Heathers, but he was friends with her fiance. But he was wearing a blue sweater, khakis and a broncos baseball cap. He looks hot to me at least:)
So I went to Heathers reception that her family held. Then went over to Brandon's (her fiances) suite where his mom had some food too. And then Tom and his mom came in to join. Anyways.. there's a lot more to that story with really weird shit happening between ppl that I don't want to necessarily say names that is just kinda creepy.
But Tom tried to fix my phone, which he found out real fast that it wasn't fixable.. it was definitely broke. Me and phones. Not a good match lol.
As we are leaving to go out and celebrate (aka drink) Tom says that he's going somewhere else. Over in WY. I was bummed. But well I wasn't going to say come with us cause I'm going there:) Well Heather, Brandon and I went back to their place had a drink and then headed down. And to my surprise Tom was there.
Oh and I am.. well was cause I can't anymore .. a shot drinking. I loved to do shots then and would experiment with many different ones. Well I was buying a round for our table and then I added one for Tom and said I bought you a shot you'll have to come over and take it with us. And he did=)
Then the night went.. to say the least we ended up in the bathroom. NOT like that. But I had pants that tied on the side and had came untied when we were walking from the one bar to the other. So I made him come into the bathroom to tie them. Tell you small towns you should not do that. I think it took like 30 seconds and ppl were saying we were having sex. And because I drink as much as I was the frickin waitress knew me as soon as I talked. She was like Trina! I'm like no my pants I need tied they won't stay up.
Well, all I know is that night he came and stayed at my place, the next night he didn't, but then from then on we've always been together. It was odd how fast things took place ..
We've had up and downs. Some major downs. And I imagine that we will have more to come.
Funny thing about are friends.. Was I was friends with Heather since Freshman Yr. And had been around her fiance for awhile. He actually used to live with Tom. Then my other friend Amanda was dating Jesse, who again been around and he also at one time lived with Tom. I was friends with half of his friends but never met him. Weird how our two circles intertwined but yet we never saw each other. Not until that day.
The one thing I can say is that I will never forget when I say him and the feeling I got. I'll never forget when he came over to take a shot with us. Those memories can't be taken away.
My good friend, Heather was graduating college that week. And to go all out, we drank every night. Well Friday met up with a group, in a town that's about 15 minutes away from where we live. Anyways I was going to get a ride with someone else when my friend calls to say come back. So I get dropped off to only not find them and she wouldn't pick up her damn phone! (It wasn't the first time this shit happened.. so I wasn't upset or anything just wanted to go home) Then I break my phone.. that's what a drunk ass does. And all the numbers are in my phone.. the phone works but you just can't see anything on the screen. So luckily the casino we .. I mean I was at let me use the phone. And long and behold the only number I can remember and who wouldn't, was my friend Cory and it was 722-SUCK haha:) I tell you if that wasn't for his number I would have been stranded.
Well he drives and comes picks me up. (oh and he was also graduating that day too, but he wasn't surprised with Heather either lol). So I get home at 5:30 a.m. and go straight to bed.
I was supposed to go to the ceremony but I slept straight thru it. Heather called like at 12:30 and was like where are you we're on our way to .. you want us to pick you up? So I'm like give me 20:) Got showered and ready and then headed off to their reception. (her fiance at that time had also graduated).
They were out at the Holiday Inn..As we were sitting there in the lobby I will never forget Tom walking thru the doors. He was there with his mom, not to go to Heathers, but he was friends with her fiance. But he was wearing a blue sweater, khakis and a broncos baseball cap. He looks hot to me at least:)
So I went to Heathers reception that her family held. Then went over to Brandon's (her fiances) suite where his mom had some food too. And then Tom and his mom came in to join. Anyways.. there's a lot more to that story with really weird shit happening between ppl that I don't want to necessarily say names that is just kinda creepy.
But Tom tried to fix my phone, which he found out real fast that it wasn't fixable.. it was definitely broke. Me and phones. Not a good match lol.
As we are leaving to go out and celebrate (aka drink) Tom says that he's going somewhere else. Over in WY. I was bummed. But well I wasn't going to say come with us cause I'm going there:) Well Heather, Brandon and I went back to their place had a drink and then headed down. And to my surprise Tom was there.
Oh and I am.. well was cause I can't anymore .. a shot drinking. I loved to do shots then and would experiment with many different ones. Well I was buying a round for our table and then I added one for Tom and said I bought you a shot you'll have to come over and take it with us. And he did=)
Then the night went.. to say the least we ended up in the bathroom. NOT like that. But I had pants that tied on the side and had came untied when we were walking from the one bar to the other. So I made him come into the bathroom to tie them. Tell you small towns you should not do that. I think it took like 30 seconds and ppl were saying we were having sex. And because I drink as much as I was the frickin waitress knew me as soon as I talked. She was like Trina! I'm like no my pants I need tied they won't stay up.
Well, all I know is that night he came and stayed at my place, the next night he didn't, but then from then on we've always been together. It was odd how fast things took place ..
We've had up and downs. Some major downs. And I imagine that we will have more to come.
Funny thing about are friends.. Was I was friends with Heather since Freshman Yr. And had been around her fiance for awhile. He actually used to live with Tom. Then my other friend Amanda was dating Jesse, who again been around and he also at one time lived with Tom. I was friends with half of his friends but never met him. Weird how our two circles intertwined but yet we never saw each other. Not until that day.
The one thing I can say is that I will never forget when I say him and the feeling I got. I'll never forget when he came over to take a shot with us. Those memories can't be taken away.
Sunday, March 11, 2012
What this is
So,
I don't know what it is about blogging that I feel like I get closer to someone. Well, perhaps that your pouring out your thoughts .. and either you feel connect to that person or you don't understand it. Either way I like it.
The reason for this blog is that I was thinking yesterday and I wanted to like reconnect with my husband again. I wanted to have that relationship of knowing what each other was thinking and to not just talk about work and the kids. To be like when we were dating and just getting to know one another.
Anyways, I've convinced him to blog with me, and each week we'll chose a topic. One week .. well it's me the first week considering I had to convince him:) but we'll take turns each week on what we want to talk about, read it and then maybe at the end of the week just discuss it for about 10-15 minutes.
I figured this way we are not busy worrying what we are going to say next in the conversation and it might help us understand each other in a different way.
That's the purpose of this blog.. I hope it works.. haha.Not funny but it is in the same sense.
I don't know what it is about blogging that I feel like I get closer to someone. Well, perhaps that your pouring out your thoughts .. and either you feel connect to that person or you don't understand it. Either way I like it.
The reason for this blog is that I was thinking yesterday and I wanted to like reconnect with my husband again. I wanted to have that relationship of knowing what each other was thinking and to not just talk about work and the kids. To be like when we were dating and just getting to know one another.
Anyways, I've convinced him to blog with me, and each week we'll chose a topic. One week .. well it's me the first week considering I had to convince him:) but we'll take turns each week on what we want to talk about, read it and then maybe at the end of the week just discuss it for about 10-15 minutes.
I figured this way we are not busy worrying what we are going to say next in the conversation and it might help us understand each other in a different way.
That's the purpose of this blog.. I hope it works.. haha.Not funny but it is in the same sense.
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